I’m going to start this blog with a confession: I don’t believe that God ever called me to blogging.
Sure, it’s something that he has used to help me to grow, and (hopefully) a few other people along the way. But I can’t honesty say that it was something that he told me to do. I guess that it was something that I stumbled into at a time when I needed a creative outlet, and two and a half years, and two blogs later, I just haven’t given up yet!
Why is it then, that in most other areas of my life, I am unwilling to take a risk without being one hundred percent certain that it is what God wants me to do.
I don’t know about you but I can spend hours and hours going around in circles, trying to work out what God wants me to do in the future. Questions like: Does God want me to stay here, or move there? What does he really want me to do? Should I take that risk, play over and over. Continue reading
At the moment I am going through the rounds of applying for a new job. It is a tedious as it is time consuming. The thing is: every now and again, I see the job that I really like the look of. I can’t help but get my hopes up and pray, Lord is it this one? Is this the one that you have for me. Sometimes I think I pray that, just because I want to have a permanent job, and a little more certainty about the future, because working through agencies is a pretty unstable way to live. Continue reading
Try harder. Do better. Don’t be so stupid.
These are the words I tell myself.
Over and over again every single day.
I don’t know about you, but often it feels like I’m about three steps behind every one else, just trying to play catch up.
But on top of that I can also be lazy, I know I could try better. (I think most of us do.) So we try to criticize and nag ourselves into submission, and only end up feeling about a hundred times worse.
Stop worrying, Care less. Don’t take yourself so seriously.
This is the advise should take.
These words sound like good advise, don’t they? At least, they’re definitely words that I need to hear! But, in my experience, they’re definitely a lot harder to put into practice.
I mean, how are we supposed to stop worrying when there is just so much stuff to worry about? Sometimes I start to relax, and then I remember that there is just so much that I need to be stressed about, that I make myself start worrying again!
I know I shouldn’t compare, but when other people’s lives are so much better how can I not. And anyway, if I didn’t compare, how else would I know just how badly I was failing.
We can try and try and take this advise, but unfortunately, on our own, it’s simply impossible advice.
You’re chosen. You’re loved. You don’t need to worry.
This is what I really need to know.
If we don’t understand that we are chosen, and truly loved. We are never going to be able to take that advice. We will never be able to relax and just be.
The only way to break free from worry is to know the peace that we have in the knowledge that it’s all in God’s hands.
The only way we can let go of comparison and feel like we are enough is in knowing just how much God loves us.
We could never work hard enough or be good enough to make God love us. Instead he freely chooses to, just as we are.
Most of the time we spend most of the time worried about what we need to do, or worrying about what we didn’t do.
One foot in the past and one in the future and our head full of worry and confusion.
The sick thoughts of mistakes and what ifs, the questions for tomorrow and the fears for the future take over and we forget to actually live today.
Right now. This moment. You can take your mind of the worry and you can find peace. Continue reading