In my early twenties my aim in life was to settle down: get a good job; a nice house and become financially secure. I had spent so many years moving house from town to town, that I just wanted to stay in one place for a while, find a home and become rooted. I wanted a decent job so that I could afford to buy nice clothes and have a nice life. I wanted to look like I was successful.
For me the last year has been an incredibly difficult one. I now have none of those things, and at times I have felt like an utter failure.
I had forgoten that these things are not our measure of success.
I had forgotten that in Christ I am rooted; that he is my home; and that when I bank on him, I will always be financially secure.
God has pushed me out of my comfort zone; to the point where the only thing I can lean on is him.
We need to remember that a life following Jesus is not going to be a settled one. Bad things will happen, and some times we will go through years of trials; at times our lives might feel unsettled, but in him we will never be insecure or unstable.
Sometimes, although we’re not facing trials, God may still be pushing us beyond our boundaries.
There are so many things I said I would never do, that God has literally laughed at, because his plans for me are so much different and so much bigger. I always said I would never work with teenagers, or in the church of England: I have done both. I said I would never live up North, and once again, I find myself there. And finally, I always said I would never start a blog!
When you put your trust in God, he will push you further than you could have imagined. But he will also love you more than you could have dreamed; hold you tighter than you could have hoped; and lead you on a bigger adventure than you could have reached alone.