Today’s Sounds of Freedom comes from another awesome blogger, Helena Davies of Grace, Lace and Polkadots.
“Thankful” on the NLC Worship CD titled Our God & Our King, describes where I was and where my heart is now. I have written the words to the song in bold throughout this post, I pray you are encouraged by them.
Though I accepted Jesus as my savior in my teens, I would be in my late forties before I realized what grace was about and who grace is!
For ten years I was away from church. It wasn’t something I decided to do one Sunday morning; it was a slow walking away. Missed a meeting here, missed a meeting there, and before I realized it ten years had gone by. Ten years away from fellowship with the saints of God and ten years away from personal fellowship with my Heavenly Father. My bible gathered dust and my prayers were not powerful, they were pitiful, worrisome, and complaining prayers. Sometimes they were cries for help, but mostly they were pity-party style.
I was homesick. I was a foreigner in a foreign land and I longed to go home where people would understand me. I had moved from Wales to America and hadn’t settled in a church, I had visited many but none seemed a good fit, so it was easy to miss meetings. No-one was going to miss me.
Nightly muffled tears ran down my cheeks as I silently prayed, “Lord, I wanna go home.” I was referring to my earthly home. He knew better. I needed my spiritual home. I needed Him.
I was invited to attend a bible study group in a neighbor’s home; I went because I didn’t like to say no to my sweet neighbor. The group met weekly and I returned each week even though most weeks I reckoned it was going to be my last week. Slowly I was being drawn back to the Father. I knew I needed to find a church home.
I visited two other churches before I walked into New Life Church (NLC). As soon as I walked into the sanctuary I felt the presence of the Lord, something I had not felt in ten years. A sigh went out from deep within me as I breathed out the words “Home”.
I was lost, Jesus you found me. In your mercy you sought me out, lifted me out of the ashes, to your unfailing love. To your unfailing love
I was lost, but He knew where I was and He was patient with me. He didn’t leave me but drew me quietly back to Him. The song talks about the Lord lifting us out of the ashes and pulling us out of the wreckage. That is exactly what He did for me, and He will do it for you if you are willing.
The chorus of the song says;
You came for me when I was lost, hopelessly lost.
Your life for my liberty on the cross traded on the cross.
I was the guilty-one not Jesus, yet He died for me, trading places so I may live in His liberty and freedom. He did this for you, too.
King of Kings, rising in Glory. To the darkness your light has come, pulling me out of the wreckage to your unfailing love. To your unfailing love
His love is truly unfailing, He is not fickle like me, and the pressures of this life don’t control Him. He is light and He brought me out from under the dark cloud that engulfed me.
For your love everlasting, I will be thankful. For your mercy unending, I will be thankful. For the cross that you carried, I will be thankful. All my sin has been buried, I will be thankful.
I am thankful God did not give up on me, thankful He pursued me before and after I asked Him to be in my heart. I am forever thankful for His love, His mercy, His sacrifice and His forgiveness. I am thankful for His unfailing love. I am thankful I came face to face with Grace.
Fun facts: Helena loves Pralines and Cream ice cream, Polkadots, taking walks around a nearby lake and singing/dancing with her 5 year old grandson to the latest kid movie…think Trolls and Sing. Although living in the States, Helena remains a hot tea drinker.